Where to start where to start....

Howdy everyone ,

It's been awhile since  I updated about life, my weightloss and things in general....

Life has been pretty up and down over the past 12 months  or so will make this short as possible if that's possible anyway ...

Will start with the home life  shall I lol...Well lets go back to  2011 we had a change in management on the farm we had been on since moving down south in July 2009...lots of bullshit went with that I tell you...Anyway hubby applied for the 2IC position never got it due to the fact well we never knew why(but only can guess what the reason was eh), and the guy taking over employed his mate "orsome " right...anyway that's fine we have all these new workers who "think" they new it all and anyway it ended up biting them all in the ass really..During this time lots of other BS went on from hubby being accused of stealing petrol, me helping the calf rearer...Anyway in between that hubby and I were looking for a new job in the area cos we werent sticking around  but had too due too "this is gotta get better surely"...hmm yeah right Tui Ad aye your thinking!!! Then we had kicks playing up at school, giving us mega attitude etc so was a barrel of laughs ...Come Oct we decided we were going  away to rejuvenate and hope like hell things would settle down , well were we in for a rude awakening again...Farm owners had come out and the  2IC that got hired over hubby was taking over in Dec 2011 not Jan so he ousted his own mate great huh? :O who does that sort of shit anyway Victor asked if he could be considered for 2IC again um yup but nah sorry "the mate" starts in dec....and thats the end of manager #2 and your thinking why the hell where we still there  right? Well you got to feed your family cos it sure as hell don't come out of fresh air does it now and going on UB was not even appealing....Anyway it was a few weeks before christmas and one of the employees child had money go missing....So me being me decided kids were not going near any houses as it was rumoured it may have been one of ours! Oh yeah of course my kids are thieves specially my 8 yr old ...I am sure i would notice $200 wouldn't  any parent if the child had that money :O, when they are not meant too. Their was heaps of shit go down on this farm I  tell ya!! 

Anyway the year is just about over so we have a farm get together. By this time the school term had finished etc so was slowly sorting out christmas etc getting ready for the new year oh and what a new year it was lol...by 2012 hubby was ready to punch peoples heads in (not him at all)...anyway school holidays over and done with and new term started etc and  by this time hubby and I were really on different pages  and I was ready to walk out on our marriage and move back too  the north island with or without him as I had enough of the accusations, the pettty bs and the general arghhhhh. Ron was okay to talk to as long as u agreed with him like u were a puppet really he was a MUPPET with the farm owners pulling his strings...So we get too March and they are doing a job review on all staff lol go figure on hubbies birthday  as of 31st May no one will have a job ..Oh good on ya lol...So applied for heaps of jobs/put ads in newsletter (well it was going okay till we sent cv and couple of the references were bad mouthing us) great thanks for that anyway took them out and wallah back on track again...all the offers were far and wide and interview stage but yet another no :(. Just about to give up and then get a phone call to go for an interview and get a "yay" you have the job...
Best thing about getting rejected for the other jobs is now we are in a great job overall(has had teething issues and personality issues but overall its awesome)...hubby gets on with farm owner and worker and manager so have a happy family again :)

Boys are all good , one unemployed and 3 at school...Overall one out of the 3 likes this school, but as a whole we are not overly impressed with it miscommunication to  wanting to pull your hair out. Taylor is currently working on his social skills lol aka drinking skills hehe. Braeden wants too go to Community College next year and Kori well he just like's being a clown lol and Connor well he played rugby this year and really enjoyed it but am I glad its over ..Braeden and Kori spend every weekend away working now so got themselves some extra coins to waste lol...Connor wants us to hurry up and move to the farm so he can play on his new toy aka motorbike..

Now to my weightloss journey well its been up and down, but the scales have been going up and time for me too get back into my habits of eating good and exercising so am refocusing myself again and hopefully the kilos will fall off again like they did, however i havnt really noticed if i am putting it back on cos im still a size 14 :O so maybe i am loosing it somewhere just not sure where lol and the clothes are not tight so maybe my scales are wrong and I only added a few kilos not the whole 20 plus i lost lol...So today i went for about a 6km walk maybe more or maybe less 1.5 hours later and I have tired arms and legs ...also have to get back to drinking water like i was and eating less junk again (slap my hand for me aye) lol...Did do indoor netball for a bit but one of the chicks decided oh we cant loose every week so decided to be a bitch and pack one and started a new team oh well her loss not mine as most of the team were doing it for social reasons not oh you got to win every week!!

Another great thing about this move is I am meeting people a lot quicker and Connor has a regular playdate with a friend from school in between his other friends and the kids still have a better social life than me lol...

So if your made it this far god u must of been bored then lol

Till next time , bye for now 

Huia

March has been and gone lol

Yup and everything is still at a standstill....I keep saying this week is gonna be better but it isnt...I need too get back too the focus i had in Oct ...

Life with the boys has been a bit hectic of late the older they get the more and more demanding they are on you time god do i look forward too them going too school each day, they seem too bounce of each other and man its getting old fast! Ready for that looney bin I tell you! no matter we do they got a smart ass answer for everything and attitude too boot...Man if I spoke too my mother like that she would of slapped me into next week and I wouldnt sit down for a week lol...

Anyway on a positve note I have signed up for a online 4 week programme and seeing how that takes me, it does tips for nutrition as well :)

This world works in mysterious ways or is it a sign lol

What is it you wonder? Has she gone mad ?Is she taking her medication or does she need too lay off the purple pills.....snigger lol


It seems people left right and centre are appearing in my life and telling me things or is that a bad thing haha not only online in real life too hehe...

Another week has arrived and.......

unofficially the scales have gone up :(...the six week challenge has gone out the window and so are my good habits dam it :(

So I have decided I want too be 70kg by April 30th, but I am not going too beat myself up about it anymore, I know i can do it but I think the unnessary stress atm isnt helping so I am comfort eating :(

Oh an also today had a fun experience not...No brakes on my car, had too try and slow the car down by using the handbrake and putting it into park...Thank goodness hubby wasnt too far away had too get him too come help.

Yup been slack LOL - This is a vent/progress

Good Morning, weekend is nearly upon us and we have a bit of a busy weekend ahead , with birthday's and kids having friends over ...

Last Sunday we had a family meeting, as things have been getting out of hand with kids and behaviour(they use too be once a week), covered things like jobs/pocket money/behaviour. It ended up me in tears cos Braeden doesn't want too hear stuff and Kori my other boy was secretly trying too hold back tears too. Basically for months and months Braeden has become more defiant and demanding which entails long arguements most days, I have tried anything and everything you name it i have tried it...It is like banging against the wall at times. Ya make progress then bam its like you take ten steps back.
Bascially I feel he has trouble expressing himself with out loosing it, his temper is very much short fused, well both Kori and his are (thanks too their dad and me but i can hold it together better lol).If he doesnt get his own way he will hit you and times I have felt like twacking him back. He wants people too respect him and his space then why can't he respect mine when I dont wanna hear from him or want a bit of space too calm the fuck down myself...

Anyway on Monday we had a appointment with 2 professionals and one of them we already knew and the other was there too find out how she could help, anyway Braeden was like really like hard too explain "but would only say yes or no answers", so wasnt showing what needed too be shown,and made the comment that its like an alien is sitting in the chair. I felt like i was on show for a better word of my parenting etc, nearly walked out but didn't..Was totally upfront with her and said, I dont know if it's just him being a teenager/his realtionship with his dad/me/being bullied/relationship with Victor . Its frustrating was my answer. By this time he was asked too leave the room so we could talk and even more questions where asked. Even pointed out the relationship with Braeden is more difficult than with my other 3 boys, I guess because we are on the same page most of the time and we can have fun/laugh.So no closer too getting any answers too anything that is going on with him but saying he is slightly anxious but not overly...

By now your probably going holy smoley im not having any more kids or I wanna put the ones i got back lol...

Right now onto the weight loss, well where do I start, crap eating still no ones fault but my own just being honest, Exercise last week wasnt really going well, this week was much better, Zumba monday, hr walk tues(5km roughly),wednesday (nothing),thursday (hr zumba) and today yet too be done lol..Probably not gonna happen much over the weekend with the birthday's.

Right better get started on the chores as Kori has a friend coming tonight so better get the house presentable lol..

Mother Nature

As much as you love too share with us your presence and all that goes with it, we do beg you calm down soon as your not only unhappy with our country, you seem too be sharing your fury with parts of Australia and now Japan :(

So far we have witnessed too much devastation this year while you kindly visited and now you have come back again, will Ken Ring be right and your back for another go real soon, I do hope you will shine your happiness again with us here and abroad but for now can you just lay off and give us a rest xxx

My thoughts and prayers go out too Japan today and families and friends who maybe affected by this recent tragedy xxxx

Take care and remember too hold onto your loved ones xxx

My plan for the weekend...hopefully the weather will...

be kind too us and we can get out for a bit of a hike as a family this weekend...Judging by the weather hmm i will have too pray awfully hard for that as its been a bit of an on/off day...

Yesterday was a really lazy day too be honest and havn't really done a great deal this week in the housework department , so have too make up for it over the weekend as well as getting some well needed exercise too compensate eating some choc this week lol(to be honest didnt really enjoy it).

This week has been a really productive week as I have stepped out of my comfort zone and started too form some friendships with like minded people (well they seem relatively nice), we met through Zumba and I am only just starting too feel comfy engaging in some conversation more than a hello/how are you? Which is a good thing, so we are looking at catching up soon for lunch somewhere before she moves. I have also got a lunch date with one of my weightloss group buddies, which we are both looking forward too so can't wait :)

For those of you who know me either from online groups/facebook/real-life(heaven forbid haha), I dont do small talk, or bullshit fakeness friendships, its not only a waste of my time its a waste of a friend aka me...Some can't handle my honesty and too me that's not my problem,it's theirs :) ...I'll do anything for anyone but piss me off or shit on me then forget ever getting help from me again.

So it's now close too 2am and I should really be in bed instead of blogging but hey who needs sleep right lol...

I am also pretty excited that I am nearing that 70kg mark for April and I am also pretty stoked that I think when i get retested in Oct that I will have a very happy dr lol...

So I will sign off now and will catch you followers on Monday ...Have yourself a great weekend and take care of you and your loved ones too xxx